*говорит и показывает Вселенная* [id489154|Екатерина Малова] умеет такую...

* speaks and shows the universe *
[id489154 | Ekaterina Malova] knows such Beauty ...
Which brings me to the temple right through, to the marrow of bones and sparks from the eyes.
There are so many strings at once - today - and I can’t really talk about it ...
But this must be done to the end.
And blue ... perhaps yes.

1

maybe you never were
endless lines of wooden boards
gift box
or shipping box
who will make out of here
from the inside seems like a whole world
on a glorious journey
from bed to bathroom
and do not raise the anchor
chain braided across the boat
smash - and then forever without an anchor
as if he had never been
or maybe the truth was not there

2

within a radius of five meters - cultural abyss
standing at the edge and no one hears
closer can be heard, but already from the abyss

I'm sorry
this problem has no right solution
(and apparently never was)

3

bought a dress
of blue color
not just blue
and himself
beautiful blue
what happens
or does not happen
or he never was
no dress
not blue
hem flare antimatter
(physicists must kill me all at once
after this line
I do not understand anything in physics
maybe it's not from physics at all)

4

the most beautiful blue dress
went to the closet, checked
it exists
hanging yourself
doesn't ask for bread
does not ask for ironing
does not ask for washing
not wrinkling
not painted
does not fade
does not get dirty
does not drink
I do not smoke
not complaining
not annoyed by little things
word does not hurt
does not offend other people's feelings
not sore
not daring
doesn't write garbage
doesn't read garbage
does not quote garbage
not repost
doesn't like
not frendit
in a word, it is almost holy
in a word, it almost does not exist
or does not exist at all
went to the closet, checked

repeat as many times as necessary until the circle opens

5
so, the most beautiful
of blue color
dress

It hung in the far corner of the store, looked at it for a month, did not dare to try on, then there was only one copy left, I think we had to try it all the same, but it was just one thing, it suddenly didn’t sit down, it turned out - it sat down, like an overcast, like a stitch on me, like I’ve been waiting all my life for how I grew and acquired an individual form for him, how I rejoiced, how I ran to the cashier and from there rather home, how I hung in a closet and never put it on again.

I feel, there is the same situation
I feel that maybe there has never been a situation

6

In general, trusting your inner instinct is an extremely dubious and dangerous practice. Maybe it really is, or maybe ... you see. But this is not a dress for you; it doesn’t help to open the closet. No matter what, nothing helps.

7

if you close your eyes
can
to sail
along endless lines
wooden boards
on a courageous journey
from bed to bathroom
and from there head for the kitchen
almost run aground by the fridge
to finally moor at the kettle
(it was possible at the table, but there is no such alliteration,
and it’s better to finish a glorious journey nevertheless beautifully)

8

the more accurate the word
the easier it is to convince yourself
What do you know
What do you feel
the word exists
yes so
that even look in the closet
don't have to
after the most accurate word
you can never say anything
as if nothing had happened
what else can you say
maybe you have never been
and the word was
and still exists
maybe you weren’t

9

as it was
when you were gone
as it was
when you
can
did not have

10

like one word
change everything
can

even
not the most accurate
can

can
don't say anything else

(Ekaterina Malova, 2014)