Потеряла веру во все это...чувство одиночества души уже...

I have lost faith in all this ... the feeling of loneliness of the soul has long been with me, and sad thoughts about the wrong choice in life do not leave my head, preventing me from being alone with myself ... there is no soul mate ... there is no such complement ... man - the positive inside fades away every day, and in the depths of me only thoughts .... thoughts are correct, but not compelling, such thoughts are sadists ... the fear of loneliness is not stronger than the desire to be happy ... and yet ... faith already lost ... in my soul there was only hope ... a couple of drops ... with love everything has long been clear, this lady specifically takes revenge on me for something ... but I'm like a "squirrel in a wheel" all of myself for her. ..a she doesn’t need it, she has other plans on my account ... maybe it’s not her at all, maybe it’s all a fake from China ... in which the batteries go so quickly and ridiculously ... but this is only my fault ... the fault of my stormy imagination, childish naivety, hope, lost faith and my strange love that I need only, my love ...
(Verchik Fedotov) ...