Уже второй день не могу избавиться от чувства,...

For the second day I can't get rid of the feeling that I am doing something wrong .. Do you know the feeling when there is fear in your soul, when your palms are wet, your heart beats so that sometimes it is hard to breathe, your head is spinning ..? And all the time there are some strange thoughts in it, from which it is impossible to get rid of, and which cannot be interrupted by anything .. At some point you realize that your "glass is half empty" .. This thought made me shudder altogether .. I always thought, that my "glass is full", because this is not just a phrase, but a whole life position ... It seems that I began to make mistake after mistake and do not understand at all how I can get a "second wind", get on my feet and again become a positive, understanding girl who rejoices at every snowflake and does not offend loved ones with her stupid, hot-tempered decisions ... I want to pour myself whiskey and talk, talk a lot and for a long time .. argue ... knock out all the crap out of my head and understand what is really in fact, everything is fine and there is nothing to be afraid of ...