Евгений Евтушенко ЕСЛИ ЛЮДИ В МЕНЯ ВХОДЯТ Если...

Evgeny Evtushenko

IF PEOPLE ARE IN ME
If people
into me
are included,
they do not go out
out of me.
Kolobrod,
dance inside,
through my muteness the hubbub.
By the wise men
and fools
crowded, -
at the end they are worn out! -
so that my skin heels
they pierce
from the inside.
Give me a little breath!
Impossible!
I am reabit
bringing so much happiness
inflicted so many offenses.
What happened to me?
What should I do with a huge crowd
in my own small breast -
even though the police are there.
I became a little crazy
for there,
in a hidden shadow
I have not abandoned one of the women,
and they did not abandon me.
Resurrecting friendships are clumsy
no matter how hard we try,
but I only lost friends outside,
and inside did not lose anyone.
Everyone with whom I swore in my life
made friends
everyone who only shook hands
became a new life-span,
like a fireless secret fire.
Everything that my vain genius created
from flashing dreams and rains -
not collecting my writings,
but the gathering of these people.
Irrevocable refundability -
like a waterfall flying back.
Who died -
reborn in me,
who have not yet been born -
screaming.
The population is too large
unbearable for one,
but the soul would not be the soul,
if there were no one in it ...

1975